Well here I am again. It seems that people get drawn back to this thing when they are depressed. I guess it is a good outlet. I also assume that no-one reads my blog because my html is so lame and un exciting. I can't beleive I am lonely. Today everyone is out and busy. Maybe I just want to be lonely. Theres so many people on campus but I always feel alone. I just sigh all the time. My heart is heavy. I really think that the past 2 years will have been a waste. All the time away from loved ones.. the incredible financial burden, will be worth nothing. I don't have what is takes to be a designer, which has been becoming increasingly obvious to me. You know how some people just are good at what they do? It comes naturally to them , well not to me. I thibnk you can aquire knowledge but that dosent mean you have talent. You are born with talent, I think I lucked out.
You know how they say money isn't everything? I beleive that fully. But the truth is that money can make you happy. I know I am very lucky to have what I have. I just dont like the guilt I feel when I buy a magazine or some nail polish.
I am sick of the guilt I feel when I eat. And when I am bored and lonely I eat more. This is such a bad feeling... usually only one this can make me feel better.
I miss my boyfriend. He and my Mum are everything to me. But I am stuck here and I can't see them or be with them. On a saturday all I want to be doing is sitting outside my boyfriends house with him in the sun, he's probably washing his car or working on it but that's ok. Just that he's there, I cab hug him if I want, thats all I need and I can't have it because he's in Sydney and I'm in Wagga.
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ho-hum
Well almost 2 years down. I still have another to go. To be honest I'm over uni. I've been told everyone goes through this. It just seems that I have been here for ever. I think this has a lot to do with my boyfriend being in Sydney. I long to be with him. He is everything to me. At the moment life is just blah when Im not with him. I know that my motivation is shot. I just really dont feel like a designer. I dont think I am one. So what does that make me? A student, a child? a woman? Im nearly 20. I dont feel like it. I dont feel like anything. I just dont want to be here.
Aussie Aussie Aussie!
Here is a letter I emailed my fave magazine..
Dear Cleo,
I was glad to read another issue of Cleo, this month being the September issue (I know, I know, I buy it as soon as it is released...) A great issue HOWEVER somthing did manage to annoy me a little.
In 'Style Flash' I was disappointed to read "Red, white and
Blue- this combo doesn't only belong to the USA! The proud
colours of the French Flag are the ones to work with this
season" Hello!? What about these being the proud colours of the AUSTRALIAN flag? Fashion this season has seen the star spangled banner emblazening almost every clothing item imaginable. Why do we insist on being patriotic to a country other than our own? There are many reasons for us to be proud to be Australian, yet most of us don't even know ALL the words to the national anthem. Although I have never been to America (or France for that matter) I think we are extremely lucky to live where we do. We have a lower crime rate than America, we own less guns per person than Americans and we live happily in a multicultural society. So why aren't we proud of our own flag? Sure there are
many issues regarding the placement of the Union Jack, but we can't forget the southern cross and the star of federation. These symbols on the flag represent everyone who lives in Australia whether the are of an indiginous backround, from another country or of anglo-saxon decent. Until the flag is changed by a democratic vote this is what represents us so why don't we wear it with pride? I can't imagine any Australian wearing an American flag during the olympics so why do so now? Besides this the fact is that our flag has similar 'style' elements to the US flag, i.e. the colours and the stars- so there is no excuse! Come on everyone! A little patriotism puh-lease!
Emily, 19.
Ewww spiders!!
Wow there are a few cobwebs in here! have been very slack. Glad to be back. Went to the band comp last nite and watched our Jen sing fantastically even though she had a sore throat. Still she performed great as per usual. Been flat out on assignments all this week and Im knackered. made a life altering decision this week. I officially vegetarian! It is a little harder than I thought. I have no urge to eat something with a face (gross huh? but it puts things into perspective) but normal stuff like cheese. Cheese although it is produced by animals does not actually kill animals until I found out about this product that goes into cheese. t's called tannin and comes frtom the stomaches of calves and sheep. There goes pizza, cheese on spaghetti, toasted cheese sangers! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. Here is the site that convinced me. You guys should check out what happens to dogs and cats in Korea. its horrific.
hmmm
Here I am agian.
All i can think of that has changed lately is my views on my future. I just realised IM 19 YEARS OLD!! I have the responsibilitys of a 30 year old, minus the kids and husband I hope to have by then. Why am I stressing about giving CSU the flick? There is so much to do so ;little time so why waste irt doing something I dont wanna? I can always come back to it and besides, you only live once!!!
aaacchhhoooo
Wow its dusty in here, been a while I guess. Wel today takes me on another journey . to where? Sydney of course. Cant wait to see Ant again. I have been thinking lately what is the fasination with changing our bodies. BTW my diet is working! Ive lost 2kgs!! well hopefully it will continue. Already I have my ears pierced twice and a small tattoo but I want ore!! I am leading more towards another piercing. Maybe I will get my belly done when I lose more weight. But getting my tongue pierced is also interesting me. The only thing that worries me besides the pain is what is it like to kis with a tongue ring or be kissed by someone who has one. Since kissing is one of my favourite passtimes I dont wanna wreck it! Anyway ta for now xxx
Celebs galore
Wel I was just thinking that I personally have seen alot of celebs around over the years. I saw Alyssa Jane Cook at this years Royal Easter Show. She was in the Woolworths pavillion with one of her daughters. I have also seen Katie from Bardot driving with her doctor fiance in her bug in the city. I saw Olivia Newton John being driven out of a posh hotel in the city the night after her performance at the Olympics opening ceremony. I saw Sally from Home and Away in Granny Mays at Macarthur Square. I have also met Nic Testoni, Travis off home and Away twice. I also saw Sam in a Maccas once. I also have meet that guy Aaron that used to be in Home and Away. Well only a few exciting ones there but a celebs a celeb! Oh yeh I ve also seen that little girl from Easter
Hello everybody I hope the Easter break is treating you all well. I was lucky enuff to go to the royal easter show. I bumped intop Alyssa Jane Cook and Penne Dennison. I also did some other cool stuff. Was annoyed that I missed the cat show. I am the proud new owner of 2 3mm Kidney stones! Yay for me! Anyways that will be all for now, ciao!
wow
Well I am quite pleased with myself. I am actually ahead of schedule with all the stuff I have due. I might have a fairly relaxing day! Went into town this morning to get some tablets and me and KB went to spotlight, she had to get some materials for her packaging project. I think I have finished but I think I will do a little for for maybe a few extra %!
I am a bit worried about this uni at the moment. There is a flurry of workmen around fixing stuff we have been complaining about since the beginning of term. I think maybe someone important is going to visit.
OMG WTF
OMG WTF am I doing here I do not belong anymore. Like all the other students of MPI104 I have been cast into a bloggers path of to continue or not to continue. I am guessing though this interest will not last that long. It will make me annoyed that I will learn more and more but it will be too late to ad anything to the 50% assignment. My BF just called me from Town Hall. I wish I was there he just finished watching the Blink 182 concert. Can you hear me drooling. He said there were many references to boobies and doodles, so I woulda loved it d'oh I love the CITY sooo much. Just the thought of being there right now.. I can't wait till I live there again. I absolutely love The Queen Victoria Building. It is sooo swanky, could never afford to shop there but still like to have a look.
Last Days
I'm here in the good ol' JCC trying to put some perfecting touches on this BOG I mean Blog. I have found another place to send you... Sarah's site
Smokey
This link is a tribute page to my cat Smokey. She ws my best friend and she died on the 12th of October, 2000. I regret most that I wasnt there at the end. I miss her and love her dearly.
Kitty
I forgot to ad this link last night, its to the sex and the kitty site. If you wanna look at the real Sex and the City site go here. I was in COM226 the other day and was wondering was it wasn't called COM22zzzzz. The room was full of multicoloured fudge haired type artys and the lecture was talking about nazi germany and proaganda. Come on this has sweet f a to do with us. I might just go and get some diet coke of course I'd prefer a regular on but it is no good for you! I would much prefer pepsi max.
still late
I thought it was about time I sent you guys on a guilt trip, here is the uk site and the Australian site, and the American site. Also, not for the faint hearted look at this and see if you don't feel bad. YOU HAVE TO SEE THIS. On a lighter note, this is cute. I am not going to leave it at that, here are more sites that I hope will make you sick
Maybe this should be a freaky religion because I can hear myself preaching! Funny that coz I dont care and I'm gunna keep going! This is partly the reason I attempted to become a vegetarian. I am going to start again here
late, to to late
I was sick today, as a dog, a sick dog for that matter.
Last nite was cool, me Belle and KB went to watch the video of Scary Movie It was a pisser with references to The Blair Witch Project American Pie,Scream I, II, and III I Know what you did last Summer and I stiil know what you did last Summer" as well as Dude, Where's My Car?
Cool visitors!
I am really shocked and surprised that I am getting visitors from all over the world to check out my site. I hope it is remotely entertaining and that you bookmark my site and keep coming back! I am from a town in Australia called Wagga Waggafor those of you tourists!!
Elephants
I wil take this opurrtunity to tell the world that today the 29th March, 2001 Me any my boyfriend Anthony Sephton celebrate our 6 months anniversery!!!! I will also use this opportunity to remind Ant! I love you baby, I'm having the time of my life!
Yours always Babe, Em xxxxx @--->---
Playgirls
Check out this site full of cool playboy clothes, all with the cute bunny logo, and for the boys this site leads to the actual playboy site. Antother cool clothes site is to Lee Jeans
Gripes II
Well folks it's that time again, another Emmm gripe session, here goes.
It is fast coming to my attention that this weblog assignment is wrecking our interpersonal relationships. I don't understand why friends are becoming rivals when it comes to all these links, entries blah blah blah. This is a place for us to show our multimedia skills and voice our views and opinions. It is not a place to bitch about the skill or lackof of our peers. People all have their own strengths and weaknesses, if someone wants to bum in this subject so be it.
Also I am confused as to why various entries are only for certain eyes to read? If these entries are too personal for the public eye then they should not be published.
I would like to wish EVERYONE goodluck in this assignment. I know it is very hard to balance all our assignments but I know that everyone has the skills to do so. That's it for another week...
People have too much time on there hands...
In my abundant bordom I randonly did a searcgh on Wedgie pages because, well I had a wedgie. This is what I found...I wonder what else is out there?
Booger Page
Snot page
Mean mean man
Hey people well lets have a bitch!! The net is down on main campus for the third day running. How hard is it for a self confessed net addict. I cant handle this anymore!
Well I went to motorace last nite. Sure the music was cool but these guys behind us were nuts. Apparently they decided we were not worthy of the barrier. They pushed and shoved and I finally was pushing so hard against this guy ( with my hand against his face that he gave up. I stayed up the front long enough to piss them off then I left. Was an ok nite but not the best.
It seems that I have a family type weekend ahead of me. My Mum brother from Bathurst and his girlfriend from Orange are coming down. I am not sure what I am going to do to entertain them. I guess I'll have to think of somthing to stop WWIII Breaking out.....
Buggy
Here is the site of the cool newish bug
Look Out Chucky...
It's official that The All Saints have broken up...d'oh. Also Eminem is have his own doll relesed ala Britney and S Club 7. There are 3 versions of the doll coming out, one with it's own miniature chainsaw.....
Theory of evolution
Here is a site dedicated to those idiots of the world who have proved Darwins Theory By trying to despose of there stoopid genes from the gene pool...It's very silly yet amusing ways people have killed themselves accidently, and also some storys like the guy who accidently severed his hand then tried to put himself out of his misery by shooting himself several times in the head with a nail gun..and survived.
Coolies
Well Tuesday means the students of CSU get to rock with Motor Ace! Should go off! Here is a site devoted to VW's Anthony has every intention of buying a dub with me and turning it into a turbo charged beast. Can't wait! Here is a cool site that has pictures of my boyfriends Japanese import, a Nissan 180sx..very sexy car!!
Here is a cool site to that great band 3 Doors Down They are the dudes who sing that mad song Kryptonite
OUCH
Wow what a weekend. I knew it would fly and it did. We went to the Tav on Friday nite, I had to show Ant the local hangout, and he was quite impressed by the very cheap drinks....I got subsequently trashed, threw up and am told I passed out a few times. Lucky Anthony carried we home and apparently had a lot of trouble brushing my teeth for me!
On Saturday we had a game of tennis which was very frustrating simply because he is alot better than me and made me run from one end of the court to the other. Sat night we went and had dinner at The Hogs Breath Cafe Which was great but I saw the calories literaly dancing on my plate of hogs tail fries. We then went and saw The Exorcist It had a few scenes that werent in the oringinal e.g. The spider walk scene. The movie was artisically fantastic, check out the link in a previous entry of mine. A great movie. Today we went into town and had lunch in the victory park...It was really relaxing and romantic *sigh*. The wildlife in the lagoon really surprised us...Lots of native birds that were really tame as well as some huge turtles that kept nicking the chips away from the ducks. Also which was really gross was this really cheeky water rat!! It kept diving under the water and taking the chips from the water too. It was such a big ass rat. YUCK. At 3.15 Anthony left. I cried my sooky eyes out. I hate this.. it was such a build up to see him and now he's gone again. I'll see him in 18 days but that is too long!! I love this man so much. Girls, I all hope that one day you end up with a guy like Anthony. Trust me, you will forget all the other ass holes from your past and you'll realise it was so worth the wait. I love you baby.
NO MORE SLEEPS!!
How excited CAN I be?? I gunna see my boy tonite!! I can't wait... hopefully he will be arriving at around 8pm. He finished work early so he could get in at a more resonable time. Should be a good weekend. We are planning to ge see The Excorcist at good ol' Forum 6. I never saw the original so I hope it is good!!
Well i bought a pair of funky pants today from sportsgirl for $15 reduced from $70 !! bargain!!. I thougt I'd look at the sportsgirl website thinking it would be dull but it's actually quite funny! Be sure to look at sportsmole
Galah
Today I found a sick galah. I chucked a blanket over it and then took it to belles and called WIRES. Bird died. Why do birds always find me?? This is the second bird I have on campus, and the second that died.
I saw a cool movie the other day check this out Miss USA
A Hairy Night
Tonight was somewhat odd. Me Belle and Kristy bleached TJ's hair than died it a lovely honey shade....Belle and KB re-pinked mine but my soul is still the washed out streaky blonde of my dying hair. Why can't I be instantly uplifted and happy? I wish I came with a button, or two that would just be adjusted to the way you want to feel instead of the way you do. You know those times when you feel every word you utter is your emenate death, or that of something you hold dear? That's how I'm feeling right now. I am picky, bitchy, annoying and I don't know why. Those of you who know and or love me know of my condition and I feel myself slipping again. I hate it. I have every reason to be joyous but I keep *excuse me*, fucking it up royally.
10 sleeps
Well my alwarm went off at 6:45 and at this stage I was dreaming...so I turned it off and pressed play. I was in some shoppinh centre and there was Wendy's... Wendy's had some snake exhibit but they were under this cloth. I was a hero and jumped up and gave this brown snake a kick. It took off like it had legs, it wasn't a really secure enclosure. It went towards this crowd while Wendy's security was eating donuts...then the guy went and got it and I had to admit to him they I caused all the commotion. ny dream experts out there that can help me with this? The dream took a while because I woke up at 8.45.Shit I'm late! I took my drugs, washed my face and ran (seriously ran.. I was sweating like a hoare in church) to class, oh I got dressed too. Any I still made it 15 mins before the lecturer! Its 10 sleeps till I see Anthony, maybe you guys will get to meet him. Drinks at my place Friday week.
Gallery
Saw a great exhibition today and a talk from the artist Michael Beare. His site shows all thye paintings that were in the gallery, very inspiring.
Cooool Site
Check out this mad site... You think of a sitcom character preferably american Id say then answer the questions, the computer will guess who it is ..it has worked for me before.
Gripes
Here goes.. I have a few gripes I want to get off my chest (so to speak). What is the male fasination with breasts? From personal experience I would like to state to those men who dont know, breasts ARE DEAF. It is pointless talking to them even if they are looking you in the eye. What do guys prefer? Big or small? Girls tend to want exactly opposite, e.g. I'd be quite happy with a 12A set, where as Belle (sorry mate) would much prefer a 12C or more. I think it would be much more comfortable to be able to run around without a bra and not suffer the consequences of multiple head wounds. God is A MAN. Why else would he create breasts when they aren't needed.. Much like cats, why cant they just grow when we are expecting?? Who other than a man would have decided that women deserve to internally bleed once a month and also suffer cravings AND mood swings? Come one....and since it is such a luxury. We DO look forward to it like the Easter Show..so much so we have to pay taxes for the privlige...Who actually voted for John Howard??? That said.. .. maybe for the guy when he is slapped in the head and told to rack off.. I'm actually surprised women weren't given penises and told to give birth through them.
Here is an interesting site that is pretty relevent to filthy sex problems..good for a laugh, Prematuree
Cool Loggers
I've just been to Belle's and checked out her Toga and Monte Christo photos, and we are convinced one contains an unusual face that shouldnt be there, we scanned it and enlarged it and everything, this ghost thing is really getting a bit out of hand!! I just had a look at Jenny's weblog and I think it is great so have a look for yourself ya'll.
Wow!
Here's some websites that should cure your bordem! Build your own cow, great for all those people who have always dreamed of being a genetisist. Sodaplay.. this is cool fun, seriously, fun.Urban75 has a game specifically created to test your skills of mouse clicking! Who said it wasn't fun to double click your own mouse? ; )
Finished!
Ive finally finished my Murrumbidgee assignment after being in JCC for the past 3.5hrs, now I'm just waiting for KB so we can blow this joint!! I found another great site devoted to one of my fave bands, Linkin Park....so I might go have a look while I wait.
I CONFESS
I know this is going to shock some viewers but here it goes, I am a fan of THE Real Slim Shady, Marshall Mathers himself, so check out the site and see what you hate about him. Another thing is I love FRED DURST and LIMP BIZKIT so have a look there too... Im sooo glad I got that off my chest I will now formally apologise for offending any readers ;)
Lazy Saturday
Today was good, a nice sleep in then off to town. Me and KB were lucky enough to take advantage of our uni discount cardsand get a wendys chocollo thick shake for half price, mmmmmmm. We then managed to keep our selves occupied until the next bus 3 hours later. I had my hair trimmed, almost got it cut shorter but declined when I found out having over an inch off would cost me $14 more, so there you go. Maybe is I wore a scrotum in my bonds hipsters I'd get a cut for $12? Well thems the breaks for us chicks, almost as bad as saying tampons are luxury items, eh? Watched a good vid tonight, The Virgin Suicides, was a little heavy and I'm almost certain I didnt't get all the bits I learned in English, irony, symbolism, metaphor etc, etc.. made me think anyway so couldn't be half bad!
Hmmmmm
Question...Do 19 year old women suffer from breast cancer and why? If they dont what do they suffer from? I guess I'll have more insight with in the coming week.
Good morning
12.21 Saturday morning just can't be a good time to be writing on a weblog... or could it??? I jusr got some insite into Row's brain and it was very interesting so be sure to check out her weblog
you'll soon learn that Row's had a bit more html experience than the likes of Me, KB and Belle!! I spent my night at the infamous TAV and once again questioned my self as to why I consumed Goon and rasberry, but for even $1 a cup this bargain hunter wasn't going back for seconds, well if it was Passion Pop, that'd be a different story!! Me and the somewhat intoxicated Kristy ventured to west hall to visit TJand ended up staying a few hours ponderiong the clouds, ghosts and the pesky bats that were hanging around the tree's. I spoke to my BF who enjoyed the OFFSPRING concert tonight and was lucky enough to see JEBEDIAH and 28 DAYS as the back up bands....Lucky for some hey? Well thats enuff for me this early early morning.. ahhh I can sleep in tomorrow damn that murrumbidgee assignment!
spoooooky
I was looking on the net for some freaky ghost pics and I came across this cool site with some really eery photos...check it out.
About Me?
As Graphic Design student at CSU I have been taught the importance of visuals in any situation, so how can I tell you about me with out a photoshop graphic or even scanned photo?? I am going to give a list of contents of what can be found in my desk drawer, the first of many such lists that may help you understand me a little better, who ever YOU are.
MY DESK DRAWER.
accomodation payment receipt,
2001 diary,
2001 calander,
u-tac (dodgy blue tac),
National Bank deposit book,
CLEO X-rated Sex Confessions Book (a darn good read!!),
VCR remote control,
really old juicy fruit,
Rusty catalogue,
Mossimo Catalogue,
Christmas card from Megan Plas,
Empty Illford black and white film cannister,
heart stickers,
Computer cover.
See now wasn't that fun!!
:*(
I'm sitting here and I have to go to class soon. I'm chatting to my boyfriend on ICQ and I just realised that even though this is the way we met, there is no way any one can have a serious relationship via the internet. We argue because we can't read the tone of each others messages and its really causes me grief. I'm glad we are able to be together in reality and not just over some network. Infact I miss him so much I wish I was with him right now.
ha ha !!
This is good for a laugh, brings a new meaning to vegetarian
Pooh!
Is that crap I can smell? Yes because I just shit my pants!! I just watched that show called screamtest, its on Wednesday nights at 9.30, the bad thing was I had to walk home ALONE!! Next weeks episode should be good, the go to local ghost house Monte Christo in Junee, I've been there before so I can't wait, will have the fresh undies on standby!!! :p
photalbum
I have a photoalbum for anyone is interested although its mainly old pics
For Real
Well this is me in a weblog. I have mastered the link now does this mean I can start enjoying myself? Hmmm ... maybe, this is university after all. I have many assignments coming up this being one of them.... but this isnt TOO bad : ) I hope you are reading this Ant, I miss you :*( Well Sandman and Flacco are going to grace the stage in Wagga this weekend but I dont know if my budget will accomodate such luxurys I will probably spend my weekend looking at sites like this. Or hanging with Belle and KB
Dewi's page
In this assignment we are linking everyones sites together, I will let you visit Dewi's scribble page
Im In!!
Well I think I finally did it! Successfully set up my own weblog and made a link... Where shall I start? Oh ok I will give you the link to Judge. He was the unfortunate guy who was killed at Eastern creek the other week, driving 280km an hour towards a barrier, here you can see his site and the car he was driving.
